I feel nothing for my spouse and I hate when he pushes himself on me.?

Trust your inner wisdom on this one. You wouldn't be doing him any favors by staying in the marriage. Just as you deserve to have true love in your life, so does he and if he doesn't have 100% of you, he doesn't have true love. Staying in the marriage for the sake of staying in the marriage is only holding the both of you hostage and keeping you both from the loves you truly deserve with other people. Yes, divorce is tough but living a lie is the toughest thing you could ever do. Trust your inner wisdom.